I had some more film that i ran through the Vivitar T201 developed and printed, i don't have a scanned version of the photos so i have only posted a photo below,
i had a few light leaks run through the first 3 photos in the film, i don't mind, i thought though why isn't it in all the photos? why only the first few. never mind. guess things just happen that way, i think there was a while between those photos and the next ones taken so having the camera lay around or handled might cause some light to get in, even if its only a little bit it would slowly leak.
i also posted some photos of some recent paintings, I've started painting onto old frame which is nothing extraordinary, i want to start using bigger frames now, and buy some house paint to use so i can really splash the paint on, nice and thick.
I'm pretty happy with this painting, its about hospitals, its got a bit to do when i had braces, they stick these things in your mouth to take photos open you up like a machine in a way. its about those sterile places, hospital beds, and also the condition of the mind. it reminds me a lot-my dad told me this story. my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer, she didn't want to be treated for it-so i guess she knew it was her time-and so they just pumped her full of morphine, my dad went to see her. she said
'open the bathroom door'
'let the chooks out'
she died a couple days later.
and that's all i have to say, about that.
i don't know if he actually opened the door or not though.
but then again, when i was a child i remember a teacher asking me what i do on the bus ride home, if i talk to anyone, i said i didn't, she asked me what do i do then? well, i said i made pictures out of the clouds, she asked me like what? i said fish, or crocodiles and faces, come to think of it i spent a lot of time by myself, one day in primary school i didn't have any friend around and i spent the whole day pretending the shelter shed was a ship that i was commanding through a rough storm. i remember living in my head probably cause i didn't talk much or know much how to talk, i use to do things that nobody knew and i liked it that way, things like if i didn't like some one i would stick my tongue out at them-but-i would do it inside my mouth, other things like when i was walking alone i would spin or clap then i knew that no one ever in the whole world or in the whole of time would ever knew that i did that-except the birds.whenever i saw a magpie i would say to myself 'go magpies', i use to get excited about the school bus turning cause i would get to see the other side of the sky, so then i could make new things out of the pictures in the clouds. and i liked it when the clouds moved and changed their shape, its like a never ending story. one time a jet flew over the school and it was so loud that i jumped to the ground, it scared me so much, i remember having a crush on Sherill in primary school i remember when i kissed her on the cheek once under the fort, and there was a tower made from tyres i only went to the top a few time cause it scared me, and one day they cut it down because it went too high. i remember a certain cow that would always come first to the dairy, i remember making pies out of grain for the cows to eat when they came, and i remember how ferociously they ate, like they wouldn't eat again and their eyes were wide when they did it and their breath was so heavy with their nostrils fleard. and i remember one time i was sitting at the kitchen table near the back door when my dad came dragging a calve it was making a lot of noise then he took the gun and shot it in the head right at the back door, and he saw i was watching and he smiled at me-not an evil smile though. you know what i mean. i asked what was wrong he said it was sick. some times i use to take that gun out and walk for hours in the plantation next door with my dog, i seldom shot anything but it was good to be there, and to sit. just for a while. i remember being with girls and waking up in the middle of the night and talking about these things. i remember the night time on the farm,
i dont know what else to say.